Ive wanted to be more, something with a genuine meaning alongest side it. I wonder if i will ever amount to anything with value, i aspire to be the main topic, to be brought up, to be wanted, yet when i am brought up i freeze up like i was dipped into an icy pit of sorrow, i wanted that, i needed that beacause what am i without being needed what i need is the reassurance of making sure im still loved and cared for what am i doing here if i dont have anything that cares for me what am i needed for if no one needed to need me. im so fucking done