I just never do anything right anymore. My depression takes such a big impact on me and who I am and how I act. I am rude, I am mean, I am hostile, I am dishonest, and with my full heart, I don't know why. I wanna be good, I want to be a good sister, I want to be a good daughter but I just can't anymore. Its like everyday I just become a worse and worse person. I feel just like my dad. And even with all this you know what I wanna do? cut myself. its ALL THAT'S EVER ON MY FUCKING MIND. even as my world and who ! thought I was is burning down, all I want to do it cut myself, my body is already covered is so many disgusting, jarring scars, I don't know why its been my copping mechanism for so long. I just miss who I was a few months to a year ago. I was so awsome, trying to do my best, putting my all, but not fuck all that ig, I'm a horrible person now yay. I'm gonna go fucking kill myself.