he goes into the lives of others, into girls who know nothing about what he does---like me when he first came into down---or to girls who have been warned. I didn't know better, so I stayed and I loved him because what else was there to do? Never did I ever think that a 4-month fling from 1.5 years ago would bite back at me when he decides that my prudence (which I did in order to protect myself because he kept trying to push into places I desperately didn't want to go into) just wasn't his thing. The authority I thought I had over my actions that had saved me that night could not save me anymore. I suffer again and again under his hands, I want him to stop. To stop and leave me alone. And it hurts more and more and more as it digs deeper into me. I'm gonna get disowned, expelled, and kicked out of my town all while he's sitting on a pedestal, untouched because he's just a boy. how will he know any better... am i even victim enough. am i valid.