I need to kill me. Every problem i have is permanent. This world is evil, its full of rapists, murderers, bigots. Corporations are poisoning us through the air, food, water in every country. You can't eat anything without it being unethical, the fossil fuels it took to just transport the ingredients together then the packaging that will be there long after your dead. Biodegradable packaging is a joke. So many 'eco friendly' companies are green washed. I despise despise talking to them, they're all evil. They all want to hurt you or they're indifferent to you. Do everything right and it doesn't matter. The more you explain the more your words are misinterpreted. I feel so sick i feel like when i talk about anything i either sound stupid or snobby or perverted. I'm so terrified of being seen as a bad person. I hate this, this is agony. I need to kill myself i need to just get it over with. All therapy is useless meds are useless i can't mindset my way out of this wish i could write more