Stop trying to force me to do what you want me to do. Stop guilt tripping me. Stop. Just stop. Yes I want to do it. Yes I so badly want to but how can I when my body won't listen to me? You don't know how much I'm loathing on myself right now for not going to school, for not doing anything, for crying the whole day, for just telling myself "I'll die anyway". All I really need is your presence sometimes. Not that crap. I just want you to listen to me but you don't. When I tell you I want somebody to listen to me and you always say you do but you don't at all.