I don't understand why this keeps happening to me. It's like I'm happy right now, but after a while, I get hit by this wave of sadness. But, sometimes, it's my mom. She's super biased towards my brother ever since I was 8, it's been years, but this keeps happening. I don't understand why my opinion or voice doesn't even matter to her when my brother's in the frame. She constantly points out my insecurities in front of my brother. It's like I'm invisible to her. I feel super guilty because I think it's my fault for not being good enough for what she wants. It keeps eating me up. Whenever, I'm sad, I just isolate myself instead of speaking it out, so when my mom sees it, instead of comforting me, she just tells other people that I'm a depressed teen and its all because of my phone. I don't know how much longer she's going to keep doing this, but I'm tired. Thankyou for anyone who read this all the way, I was bored so I decided to dump it all here. I'm grateful, thankyou.