I might always be alone. Time will fly by and the people I want in my life will leave because they'll be able to change for better while I stay stagnant of no change. I might never make new friends, I might never find a bf that loves me, I might never become successful, I might never be able to achieve my dreams, I might never have the courage to go to college. I might always be stuck in this room in this house and rot away. At least thats what it feels like. I'm 19 and people my age are already achieving things in life. My best friend is doing something. The guy I like is doing something with his life. People I knew in HS are thriving and achieving. While I'm not. Im a loser and I definitely don't deserve to live. I have nothing going for me. Compared to anyone else. Don't say "don't compare." Its the damn truth. How much longer for good change to happen to me. For me to stop being a fucking loser. When will something good happen for once