I’m so tired of chasing people around just to be my friend to get hurt in the end. Every day I put myself through watching their stories and seeing kids my age have fun when I can barely fit in. I just want to experience being a child for once without having all this pressure on me it isn’t fair that teens my age get to hangout and do fun things while I’m at home worrying if I’m gonna be able to afford this or not or if I’m gonna be able to have a good future. If I’m not thinking I’m studying every single time I just want a goddamn break for once everything hurts man I’m trying so hard to stay composed but everyday this stuff gets harder and harder to ignore I just want somebody to finally understand me instead of being overlooked all the time I’m so stupid for even ranting online cuz I don’t have anybody else to fucking talk to how much of a loser am I?