I tried so hard to fit in with this one community who just constantly made me feel small. People who objected to them were put down, labelled as prideful, no match for the patriarchy and the gymgoers on there with their unsolicited wisdom and hot takes from contemporary office philosophy. The dog eat dogs of the world, infatuated with Sopranos and Euphoria. I was disgusted. Sick. They mocked everything I ever tried to make. I felt like Charlie from Flowers For Algernon against a bunch of ravenous Frank Reilies who happened to have talents. Mean girls with pop psychology and some cult spirituality that never made any sense, even to the mind that understands Wittgenstein and Deleuze, and especially to them. I never want to be judged by those people again. I just want to be smart and artistic without posturing for once.