I just have so much anger. I don't even know who I'm mad at. I'm starting to look for ways to fix how I feel. I feel my spiritual connection is blocked. My body is tired. This is hard. I want someone to love me. I want my parents to care. When I shut them out I wish they cared enough to at least acknowledge it. I always have to be the one to take emotional lead. I am always the giver. I feel like I'm never the receiver. I'm mad at driftwood because they won't support me if I don't stay at Riverside. I don't want to stay at riverside. My resentment is getting huge. I'm carrying a lot God. I'm frustrated that I can't pick up where I left off. I don't feel emotionally safe in relationships, or that I can truly confide in that person. When he says you can talk to me I don't believe him. I don't want to burden him. I don't want him to feel like he has to fix me. I want to understand my emotions. I don't want to shut him out because of my issues. I need more support but I'm just feeling sham