Recently I started dating this guy who I thought was perfect for me. I am 17, and he just turned 21. Despite our age difference I wanted it to work because I truly loved him so much and I still do. The first month was amazing and I truly felt like this would be my partner forever as all young people do, now a month later we are doing awful. Everyday he brings something to my attention of something I did wrong, I won't bother listing them because I really can't tell if I'm a horrible person or not, but all my friends who I tell about him tell me it's not my fault. Every time I think things are getting better, that we are getting better and that maybe I can go one day with him being happy again he keeps mentioning these things. Ever since September 10th I have cried every night over this. He gave me confidence, he made me feel like I deserved love. But now all I can think of is cutting again.