I don't understand. I offered you peace, a chance to rebuild with me, I don't have contact with the others. I've offered you forgiveness, but your refusal of all of this is still you being selfish. ITS SELFISH there's no other way around it. You're choosing to isolate yourself, you're still running, and you're still abandoning me. How difficult is for you to know and accept that I still love you. How difficult is it for you to forgive yourself when others won't. There is no going back to our old lives, I know that! But a refusal to want to restart is exhausting. You still choose yourself, your wants, and your needs just like in the past. -S