ive been so lonely for so long and isolated i have no friends and at this stage in my life it seems impossible to try and make any and my bf is getting fed up with my bpd everyday bc its getting worse rn life just feels like im existing bc i have like 1% of hope that it might turn around but wow everyday is genuinely so isolating i have this thing that happened to me about 10 months ago now and i feel so pathetic for not being over it yet bc its taken over my whole life for the past months and the reason why ive been rotting away this whole time and it just feels so isolating and pathetic bc they r all probably over it and living their best lives bc it happened months ago but i literally like died after for months and im barely even getting out of my house again, but everything feels so uncertain now and im even more sad than before, idek anymore but yeah if u read this thank u sm for ur time <3