I’m such an AWFULL person. I keep wanting to try and hurt her and make her feel weak but even if I never have physically hurt her I keep trying to make her feel bad. Idk why. Well maybe I know. I guess it’s because she keeps always mocking me around people I care about and when I try to say something she twists my words and makes me seem like the bad guy. I try to pretend I have a perfect life for my parents not to worry about me bc they already have so much to worry about, like my sister but I guess she became jealous or something. The only real friend I have I can’t even hang out with because she always tries to take her away from me and does the mocking thing and it works bc now my bff doesn’t rly hang out or text me as much as she used to. I guess everything I did today was because I was mad and angry at her and wanted her to feel the way I had, but differently. I didn’t even do much, just take some of her stuff that wasn’t hers to begin with but now I’m the bad guy. Maybe I am.