Lately, the only thing I don't like these past few days is the academic me is failing, its like I'm losing my spark for learning, lately I've noticed that tests that I took kept failing. I want to do something, I read and read I study and study, but still it seems like the gap inside my head can't be filled. I can't focus properly. I hope that someday this fog in my head will end already and so that I can focus again and make my mother proud, because I have no other talents anymore, just this academics. And there is no other way to make my mother proud(for me) than an achievement academically. I know that its owkei for her that I am not apart of the academic excellence award, but deep inside I know that she's really roooting for me to get in so Imma try my best even if it means almost not sleeping everyday. I JUST WANT TO FOCUS. I WANT TO LEARN. IT SEEMS LIKE IT CAN'T GET INTO MY HEAD.