Rant #25912

I have a wife who loves me the best she can. Often times, she hurts me mentally and she cant understand that. I try to keep loving her, but I cant help but notice ive stopped loving her now. I talk to her about it, and its my job to try and fix it. I have to be the one to change. Now im starting to trauma bond with my best friend and ive developed feelings for them. Im going to ruin everything in my life because I cant feel the love I want to anymore.