I feel like I'm the WORST ever. My friend is going through a tough time, and I was trying to help her. Then she told me about her mother, how she noticed her sadness, comforted her, and hugged her. I started trembling with intense jealousy; it felt like a personal attack. Oh, how I wish for that, how I wish my mother would hug me instead of throwing me to the ground and suffocating me. I feel so incomplete, less than my best friend.She has something I can only dream of. I still feel pain in my chest; if I think about it any longer, I'll start trembling again.