my mother often hits me and shouts for no reason and is genuinely just uncomfortable to be around especially since she always brings up my grandma when shes shouting at me and she knows its a sensitive topic for me because she was the only person i could talk to since im scared to tell my friends that idk if i want to be here im like 80% that when im older i dont want my mum in my life or my kids’ lives but i just dont want to drop my dad too because hes genuinely such a good person or my brother either bc i just love him too much idk what to do