I'm not rich. I get that. I have friends who are well off, and they like to include me, and I'm super grateful for that. But if I turn down an opportunity, I wish other included friends would STOP ASKING ME IF IT WAS TRULY MY DECISION and not my spouse forcing me! This is why I lie with excuses, because I'm tired of being questioned about my own decisions! I'm not people-pleasing my spouse! I want to have the opportunity with them first! Why is that so hard to understand? And continuously pushing makes me want to turn down more and more trips because I don't want to spend time with someone who thinks I'm holding myself back because of my spouse! I want to wait! STOP TELLING ME YOU THINK YOU KNOW MY MIND and then get upset when I ask you to stop! If I wanted to do it, I would, spousal desires or not! I've done it before, and I'll do it again. I just don't want to do this trip with you first! Stop getting mad at me and my spouse for my decisions!