Listen, I wouldn't keep reaching out to you if I didn't fall out of love with you. I still love you, I can't help but love you. I can't help but think about our old positive times. Just spend your final days with me please that's all I want. We can clean up our dms and pretend things didn't fall apart. I can't help but miss you. Don't try suicide, please don't I don't think I could ever feel the love I have for you romantically for anyone else. If we are parted I would just become a monk, so I could never be with anyone else. I miss our long talks and joking around on hot summer nights. I can't help but think about you when I'm my partner and pretend that when I'm with her she's you. However, I also believe in Bhuddism, perhaps we could try again in another lifetime and in the afterlife.-S