I get feeling suicidal but I don't wanna do it even though life is being a shitstorm today. One thing or another. Banged my fingers in the door closing wow that hurt. Almost got hit twice driving today people driving through parking spaces blindly IN BETWEEN CARS almost t boning us. I get woke up at 530 by a herd of salty ass Karen buffalos upstairs. Humans can only take so much crap. People suck anymore. Some are super sweet. Those types are quite refreshing. I know there's silver linings in stuff but I'm tired of having bad days seemingly everyday lately . I wish I could pack up and go no contact elsewhere.