I genuinely don't know if I'm transmasc or not. I like being able to hit high, feminine notes, I like being able to wear feminine clothing. But I'm sick of people looking at me and only seeing a girl. I'm sick of looking in the mirror and seeing a girl. Going by my true preferred pronouns (he/it/they)would seem like a lie anyways. I wouldn't even pass as they/them. I have long hair, noticeable boobs, a feminine voice. I'm just sick of myself, I want to be a boy so bad...just...idk.
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