my boyfriend has had a porn addiction throughout our relationship and i recently found out. the thing that made it worse was that he was doing it girls that i knew, girls that go to our school, and girls that he explicitly told me that he didn't find attractive. it really hurts me still, but i'm staying with him lmfao. so like i don't even know how i'm supposed to get over that. like how am i supposed to know that the girls that i'm friends with right now aren't people that he's looking at? how can i invite people to events when i know that he's looking. the thing that hurts now is that i gave him nudes, but he won't jerk off. it feels like because it's not me he can't do it. so do i just die