My psychiatrist suspects I have BPD and today I just feel like I fucking hate my bf. Like he won't shut the fuck up he's boring he just yap about things like he knows fucking everything and I can't even try to talk to him about my problems because the whole conversation ends up about the chemistry of the brain like I DON'T CARE I JUST FEEL LIKE SHIT AND I NEED I COMFORT... He's a good man tho he's sweet but idkk man I can't stand him sometimes and also the sex is so bad that I don't want to touch him ever again after doing it. I feel so like sad bitch I wanna have fun I want to do something risky I want to do something that makes me feel alive for once and he doesn't want to do anything, no alcohol, no drugs, no going outside at night, no kinks, nothing. We have so many things in common and could build a future and being successful together (we do study the same career). He has a nice family he's the most respectfull man I ever know so why can't I be happy with him!????