i should've just died BWHAHHAH nyate. i keep hitting rock bottom after rock bottom. everytime i let myself feel happy, everytime i feel life betting a tiny bit better SIKEEE! here's another rock bottom mazafakaaa!!! it never gets better, it only gets worse. i can't see a way out of this misery. maybe i am just meant to be a miserable woman, maybe i am not meant to be happy... there is not one good thing in my life anymore. all aspects are fucked. tama na, i'm tired. it's just a cycle of pain and misery. ayoko na po