I’ve felt so depressed for almost 3 years now and I know that’s not a long time and so many other ppl have it so much worse than me I mean I have a good house, a loving family, great parents, but no one else knows and there are some nights that I just sit and stare at that fucking pill bottle and I want to so badly but I can’t do it cause I’m a fucking coward and it’s to the point where I don’t even cry anymore, I just shut down and I don’t know what to do anymore