i hate my sleep schedule it's actually ruining my life but i can't bring myself to try to fix it because my time alone at night is the only time where i am truly at peace like my parents arent screaming at me and my siblings arent fighting and no one expects anything from me and i get to watch edits and movies and shows and read books and pray and write and do whatever i want without worrying about school or homework or my social life because im busy doing the things i love and i hate that it can only happen late at night because i have to wake up at ~5 every morning and when i dont wake up early it's still bad because i wake up in the afternoon so basically my day is ruined before it even begins and i hate it so much but i dont know if it's worth losing the only time i have alone