i just wanted you. every time. all i wanted was you. and i thought you wanted me. i thought i'd finally gotten the brother i always wanted. i believed friendship didn't have to be less than family. my mom's words, blood is worth more than the friends who will leave you every time, finally fell out, and i thought they were gone for good. i thought a lot of things. and none of them. NONE OF THEM. were true. i called you my like-a-brother. i stayed up late texting you. i told you luv u before i went to sleep. i let you cry and you let me cry and i used to be the first person you talked to and all of a sudden you're too busy to text me but you can send him memes. why not me. is it cuz im a girl. and boys don't talk to girls. cuz u didn't used to care. and i miss u i miss u so fuckin much and YOU DON'T CARE. YOU DON'T MISS US. YOU DON'T HURT THE WAY I DO. and i don't want you to hurt but i wish you at least cared a little bit because it would mean i didn't imagine it. <3.