Rant #2449

after failing back to back, I might just get kicked out. I honestly have no idea what I'm gonna do if that happens. I know I'm smart, but I feel like I can't catch up or not committed enough to catch up with the work load. Plus, the fact that I don't seem friendly either, I feel like it pushes people away. I don't think I have a good impression there atp. Seems so...hopeless. I don't wanna do this anymore. But if I don't keep going, I'll rot aimlessly. because in this country, regardless if you got a degree or not, its still hard to find a job. idfk what to do at all plus, i joined this course, thinking I like it. but atp, idk if i really do like it, or just the concept of it.