Trying to get a divorce and being dismissed by my lawyer about getting full custody, I'm a survivor of domestic violence. That doesn't matter to anyone, I guess. Nothing matters anymore. I don't matter, what I've been through doesn't matter to anyone at the end of the day. It doesn't matter that his acts of violence were done in front of an infant. I'm not okay. The only thing that is keeping me going is my baby. I'm frustrated as the victim, the world treats DV survivors as garbage. We don't chose this life, I sure as shit didn't. I feel so hopeless and I just want everything to end.