I just wish I could retry life again. I wish I was born prettier, smarter, more grateful. I wish I was born kinder and happier. I wish I had a good mental health, and good priorities and values. I wish I wasn’t so nihilistic and sensitive. I wish I was funny. I wish I was happy. I wish I was happy for you. I wish I never picked up that razor and rope. You deserve better. Im sorry I turned out this way, and you don’t even know