i hate possibly having autism and c-ptsd i hate being alone but i hate having friends either. most of my friends have high social skills and i hate that they can talk to people hate that they don't feel awkward every second of their life hate that they're not here with me and i have to suffer in loneliness i hate being alive so much i wish i was bever born instead of living such a shifty life im angry at everyone and everything and i am so fucked up i just want to kill everyone