Sometimes I want to break down and cry because I dont know what to do. I dont know what I want and I dont know what I want from my partner, I just want to stop feeling like there's nothing about me worth liking and that he's "just faking it" all the time. I know that comes from me, but at the same time I dont know how to handle my feelings when he does something that makes me sad/upset, I dont know how to verbally express what I want from him and what I want him to do and that makes communicating about this even harder because he knows something is wrong but doesnt know what to do. But also at the same time again I feel like I've expressed these same things over and over and nothing changes. I'm worried he's getting sick of me, giving up on this. I just wish we could spend more time doing couple things together. He's always putting effort into community work but won't do the same for going on a trip together or possibly getting married. I cant ask for anything because I dont have a job