relapsed for the first time in almost 5 months </3 fairly proud of myself ig but yh it just feels like all i do is hurt my friends and cause them problems when really i just want to make them happy and have a reason to get out of bed each day tbh </3 anyways i really care about them i just fear that im failing them. i mean they all have their own best friend and each other tbh LMAO?? sooo like why am i hanging around hellooooooooo????