I just can't be creative. I can admire people like Salvador Dali and Antonin Artaud, and maybe I will read their works through and understand them, but I can't ever be creative because I've always been a lolcow before and there's just too much effort for nothing. I know that I'd be better off dead but I feel like I can't do it when I know how I'm being watched by others. It doesn't matter.