I just feel so empty. I don’t really have any special qualities, I’m not tall, I’m not good looking, I'm awkward, and I’m not good with relationships either. any bit of attention I get I just automatically jump at the thought of some kind of romance and it’s done nothing but hurt me emotionally and financially, wasting my time and money and people who don’t even really care about me and will only keep asking me fore more and more. What makes this all worse is that I cope with all of this through jokes and because it’s so uncontrollable for me, when I want to be serious, nobody thinks I’m being serious. And what makes it double worse is that I’m always doing things for people and I’m never receiving that same kindness. Everyone always wants to come to me with their issues and problems and wants advice for me but there’s nothing I want more than to hear what I tell other people. I realize that everyone has their own issues, and I don’t want to bother people. I’m already not special.