It’s been almost been a month since I’ve broken up with my now ex boyfriend. I honestly didn’t want to breakup with him all alone so I called up a friend. I felt bad because I started crying and my words got chocked up. But I did it; I broke up with him with my friend by my side. My friend isn’t the problem it’s me. I thought after breaking up with him I’d feel better, I have but that feeling and want of a relationship is affecting me. I don’t want to be in a relationship right now or in the future. But I still have that feeling and longing for a relationship. It honestly sucks ass, I might be aroace or Cupidromanitc but idk. Maybe I am a hopeless romantic. Every relationship has been a fail, I get my hopes up to much just to be left all alone like always. It hurts sure but what can I do about it. Most of the time I have broken up with them, so do I truly deserve a relationship. I’m just so tired of feelings this way. I don’t want to be this way. Not anymore at least. I’m sorry.