not being liked by people, it’s like everytime I find out someone doesn’t like me I have to make it my mission to try be liked by them. and 10 times out of ten they simply just never will, sometimes it’s simply because of my skin colour, sometimes it because I don’t fit the beauty standards they have in their head, sometimes it because of the way I dress, the way I act, the way I present myself, I’m not pretty enough to them, I’m not cool enough, im not smart enough, im too kind, im too weird, im too quiet, im too fake, my hair is too “kinky”, my teeth are too yellow, i think too much, im “whitewashed” im ew. i could try change the way i act, be more quiet, be more patient, get whitening strips, dress how they want me too, be whatever the fuck, and theh won't like me at all. fuck people. im tired, and fuck trying to find a boyfriend too.