What the fuck is wrong with me I get these episodes where I lose my fucking mind, I can’t think straight and I fall on the floor and I foamed at the mouth one time, I can’t stop cutting myself now, I’m starting to do pills now, yesterday I smoked a bunch of weed, I’m so fucked, and the worst part is I have completely normal life, like a got a family, we’re not struggling with anything, I’m doing fine at school, I just hate myself now, I’m doing things I never thought I would do. I held my dads gun once to my mouth, and I looked at it for a long while, it almost felt right, god I might just do it, I only havnt because I don’t want to do it to my little brother.
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