hey ...im always distracted by my phone i took a gap year after my ug .im confused and excited,my plans of learning driving ,cycling.and going to gym corrently didnt work because of financial restraints.on the upsides i have been traveling on my own more.i met new people .started reading more consistantly.i drinks more water .i have lots of time to reflect.and im coming around some uncomfortable realizations.i have started taking escitalopram and at first i was over moon now it makes me kinda bad .that i have to take meds because im not normal.i got diagnosed with ocd and generalized anxiety.my life goal is to manage my anxiety and not letting it to devour my life.there is no perfect life. but being a better person than you were yesterday is enough.im carrying the same guilt of gaining accidental consciousness and self awareness while the evolution process like billions of humans that have existed way before me.good day.