im so fucking tired dude. im not gifted in anything. I've done theatre since i was 8, its been almost a decade since i started and somehow everyone is better at it than me. I put my heart and soul into it and suddenly someone who tries out for the first time gets it immediately or they've always gotten in since they were younger. How come IM not gifted? im okay at singing, im adequate at acting and not that great at dancing despite YEARS of trying. im so fucking sick of it. I keep trying and trying and I never make it. I want to be a writer, and yet I see peoples work and its way better than mine, i like to draw and do art and i get envious at seeing how my friends got it perfect first try, i am in 4 AP classes and i have a good GPA but my friend is taking 5 AP classes and has a perfect 4.0. I play drums and another person is still better than me. I know this is just really bad envy and it fucking hurts. I know i shouldnt compare myself, but how could i not?