I feel so selfish rn but I’ve been working so hard the last few months, been dealing with so much crap and bad luck and I’ve been looking forward to a relaxing holiday over my birthday. I’ve never been away from home on my birthday and I’ve been excited to experience it. Well, now I found out that the four other people outside of me and my partner have had a huge falling out. My partner isn’t looking forward to the holiday anymore and I just…Im just so tired. I’ve been feeling especially suicidal lately and this was going to be a time for my brain to reset before we move across country. I feel like just sobbing. I just want to do something nice, last year I spent a lot of my birthday in and around hospitals caring for others. I saved up annual leave and money for this…