If I cant get a diagnosis why couldnt i at least have some good traits in exchange Maybe im better at memorizing or maybe i look presentable easily i can communicate like a normal person professionally smartly not ramble or go back to correct myself because it doesnt matter as long as point is delivered even if i dont try or maybe i just have enough willpower to push through no matter what All I have is observation but it just leads to being overly critical and preventing me from no thoughts head empty try anyway even if the situation is grim. Why is my thing being aware of too many things that it ends up being a negative. Its not that deep youre over thinking it do you have ocd or something hearing it over and over. I know Ive been trying to just go do it but i keep seeing things that need to be improved and it gets stuck and my perfectionism takes over or idont think what ive come up with is acceptable or passable enough even with the time ive put into it the result isnt good enough