Where do I even begin? I don't remember the last time I was given a compliment. What I am reffering to is academically. I just don't get it. Why does it always seem as if I'm behind? At most I'm average in all subjects. And at worst — below average in them. There is no subject that I'm good at. These things are important to me, because my self-worth is basically 0. I just wish I was smart. At least then I would have a purpose. The way I am now, I just don't see the point in anything. I feel so stupid. So useless. Why cant I be smart? why was I not blessed like those around me? People have so much time on their hands that their biggest problems are about relationships. Can you imagine that? While here I am, frustrated at myself for being stupid. My hardest is their warmup... Man o man... How I wish I was smart enough. Then I would be like those around me. Can you imagine it? not worrying about the future? And your biggest problems being your gf/bf? Ah. How I wish. Its only a wish.