Im so sick of my life. Why the hell do i have to try so god damn hard just to end up short? i feel like im throw all my time effort into a black hole and im so damn sick of everyone telling me that ive got it better then most my age and if i smiled a bit more its make it all better or thier advice is for me to drop the things i like to do for this other bullsht or they tell me to drop shifts at work (i work part time as a high school student) but i need the damn money i save and save and save and i still broke. Im also so so so sick of my friends telling me that thier going to kts constantly everyday. Were not that close its so damn draining to try and live my life and stay afloat/alive. i do not want to have to worry abt urs aswell expevtly when they dont want to help themselves. And this makes me feel like sht thinking that way cos i do like then and want them alive ... I want to run away sb so so bad.