my father came back into my life. well hes trying to. i haven't seen him in 2 years. the last time i saw him face to face was when i had a big argument with him. its been 2 years and he's planned to go out with my sister this weekend. i was asked if i wanted to go but I can't help but feel embarrassed. i am the reason why i haven't seen him. but I miss him so much and im scared. i feel like if i do go it will be awkward but if i don't go ill beat myself up about it. i feel so lost.