even a 16month old baby has more skills than me. i just cant keep trying to live anymore ill never ever make anyone happy. i cant even keep the baby happy without raging out like crazy. sick in the head thats all ill ever be. i could always tell tehere was something wrong with me and i always keep telling myself ill make it through, i tell myself to stop being dramatic but as long as i make another fail thats it. i keep sinking and attempting and failing even to attempt. i fepel genuinely feel like gsrbage that has to be thrown.