I kinda have my own personality, but I've never really shown my "real one" because my personality kinda warps depending on who I talk to. Like if I'm if talking to a certain friend, ill be less energetic and stuff, mainly because they make fun of me or look at me weird whenever I am energetic. Especially around their other friends. I mean, they used to use me as a punchline or as if I was their personal punching bag. And it was even worse when they had this specific friend around and the friend was just so rude to me for no reason. and they didnt say anything about it. They just let them be rude, and they also played along. Anyways, there's theirs this other friend that I feel a lot more comfortable with, but I still don't open up to them or show my true personality because Im just so scared of being annoying. And then for my other friends I kinda just adapt to whatever they like or act. So my personality is just mixed with theirs, and its not my actual personality.