it hurts sometimes when you have the passion to do something but you dont have the talent to do it. i envy people who draw. especially my younger brother. i yearn to draw but it's just so hard for me. i can barely draw a stickman. its hard for me because i have Aphantasia, a condition where my mind's eye is blank when i try to imagine an object, person, or place. i can't envision how i would want the drawing to look like. i don't know what to do when drawing. even something as simple as drawing or matching clothes combos, i can't do it, because i can't see anything in my head. even the talents i do have, like writing, something i used to be so passionate about, i am losing them. im slowly losing my ability to write stories, descriptive writing, poems, riddles. I used to be able to do so much. just 2 years ago i was able to write in books upon books. even my parents know i loved writing. every birthday they'd give me a notebook to write in, and my brother a sketchbook. im losing myself.