Today when my dad tried to choke me over dirty dishes l almost felt a sense of relief when l thought l would get the chance to pass out and feel peace. I may not remember but l would wake up knowing the noise outside would be gone, the yelling would be gone. But it didn't happen. My mom pulled him away but l wish she didn't. It would give me the excuse to leave, cps would listen this time. I just want something to happen so l can leave a year early.